John 14:16-17

"I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may be with you forever; that is the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it does not see Him or know Him, but you know Him because He abides with you and will be in you."

Let it be to me according to your word.

its those people we read about in the news who express all their thoughts and emotions through outlets like this because they have no one to really listen. its those people who get lost in their own craziness that they do the most outrageous, unthinkable acts of immorality. i always wondered why, but im slowly understanding why. they were just in need. the world is in need. a bigger need than most people believe. those that dont believe in this need are just lying to themselves. itll be a sad realization for them one day when they are barely afloat. their minds will lost in left field and their hearts will be rotten to the core. they will wish that they could live in the past. but thus is life. it is a culmination and spiraling of man's brokenness fed by man's attempt to control it. we are all spiraling out of control. lost in this so-called life that we once believed would set us free. how foolish we are. how childish to believe that. ideal and reality are opposites, yet we imagine them as complements. stupid. what you know isnt something you can escape. but it can drown you. sucks. stay afloat a bit longer. or until your will is unwilling.

7.22.13

Today was a letdown. I don't even have the words to explain it.

Transformation

"Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."

1 Corinthians 9:24-27

Discipline. Transformation. Renewal

Community

I've tasted the richness of community. I've tasted the emptiness of community. If you say that your community is life-giving, soul-fulfilling, eternal satisfaction..then I am looking forward to it. Be my desire.

5.11.13

this life is so fleeting. it's filled with many disappointments. many things that disappoint. many people who disappoint. there is no satisfaction. it's a fallacy that this earth tries to convene. the people who you spend the most time with will forget who you are. in the end, you die alone. in the end, you dont really know where your soul goes. life is a big mystery. maybe for a reason, but regardless, it'll disappoint. tired of this nonsense.