wow. its been a while. somehow ive kept all my thoughts in my big head of mine w/o just letting it ooze out. the school year has started. half a week in the books. i came in the year hoping to just enjoy and be relaxed during this year. its my super senior year. my last year in the MPA program. didnt think much of school. didnt think much of studying. yet, so far...the year has been anything but a cakewalk. but in a good way.
i dont want to be relaxed my last year. i dont want to settle for just being chill and wasting the abundance of opportunities. i want a challenging courseload. i want to feel the pressure of being a graduate accounting student. i want to sit in econ420k mircotheory economics TA session and not know what the flip is going on with the calculus review. i whine about it, but i know that this year is not meant to be a cakewalk. i want the ministry in AACM to be challenging. brotherhood-ing wont be easy. loving neighbors and roommates wont be easy. when life is easy, i forget the calling. i forget how joyful it is to talk to strangers and get to know people i typically just walk by. i dont want to be a spectator this year. i want to be a partaker in the joy of having freedom to love. i want big expectations and high hopes.
i do not want to be satisfied. i do not want to settle.
currently on my mind: relient k - getting into you
