sports sports sports

hmm this blogging thing doesnt seem like a bad idea after all. im always thinking, might as well jot down some thoughts. today was quite the day. church, im softball, im indoor soccer, mavs playoff game. great day w great people.

as the day ends, ive been wrestling with the idea of sports and how it impacts my life. i love sports. i love everything about it. i could watch any sport, at any time, at anywhere if i had to. everything is a sport. there is competition all around me. thats what i love about. i love the competition. i love the adrenaline rush. i love winning. i love trash talking. i love playing on teams. sports is just a beautiful creation. thank you God for sports.

however, ive grown fond of sports throughout the years. most guys would be like..thats okay. youre a guy. thats normal. but for me..i think ive grown too fond of it to the point where sports dictated a lot of my life..mainly my emotions. i looked back at my xanga (haha what a silly thing btw) and man..there were a lot of emotional and angry hate posts about sports (some that are kinda shameful). i can kinda laugh about it now, but in all seriousness, i find it disappointing that i was like that. true, ive grown up and really swallowed a lot of pride when it comes to sports. i try to talk less trash. i try to not let others' trash talk get to me. i try to find other joys whenever something upsetting happens in sports. all these things i try..or have tried..or am trying.

i just hope that years down the line, when im a working class man (maybe with a wife..maybe even kids..thats crazy too btw), i can look back at this post and laugh at myself for even letting sports dictate a little part of my life. don't get me wrong..i am a loyal sports fan. but i want to be a loyal sports fan w/o all the negative baggage. its one thing to be upset at a loss in the sports world, but its another thing to let a loss turn you into a person who has no regard for his own self-respect and the respect of others. i pray to God i may flee far from that person.

in the end..sports is sports. a loss is a loss. frown and move on. there are by far many greater joys in life worth cherishing than sports. i hope i can truly live this out.

God bless

4/23/10

oh yippie another blog

this must be like my 4th blog site yet im not much of a blogger. i am a big thinker tho. the hamster is always running, but i dont seem to write many things down. however it is nice to be able to look back after months/years and see what exactly i was thinking or what was happening in my life.

i just looked back at my old xanga page. wow. i was an interesting guy back then.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

many times i find myself lost..confused..faithless not physically..nor mentally but spirituality its tough to soak in some things in life and other things..i cant quite explain why i do them yes i go to church and truly love every second of it and understand the meaning of most lessons but i still realize this gap a spiritual gap that i feel is gettin larger and larger as each day goes by life is a struggle and i know that but..man..life can just be a pain in the ass and it never seems to go away im not sure why i really writin this i just feel lost and i need you God build me up give me strength give me discipline

i hope ill actually use this blog in the future. not for any type of comical relief, or amazing daily posts, but just what life is like. what im feeling. how im doing. what things in life really got me thinking. what things God is showing me.

ill leave it at that for now.

God is good. has been. praise and glory.