sports sports sports

hmm this blogging thing doesnt seem like a bad idea after all. im always thinking, might as well jot down some thoughts. today was quite the day. church, im softball, im indoor soccer, mavs playoff game. great day w great people.

as the day ends, ive been wrestling with the idea of sports and how it impacts my life. i love sports. i love everything about it. i could watch any sport, at any time, at anywhere if i had to. everything is a sport. there is competition all around me. thats what i love about. i love the competition. i love the adrenaline rush. i love winning. i love trash talking. i love playing on teams. sports is just a beautiful creation. thank you God for sports.

however, ive grown fond of sports throughout the years. most guys would be like..thats okay. youre a guy. thats normal. but for me..i think ive grown too fond of it to the point where sports dictated a lot of my life..mainly my emotions. i looked back at my xanga (haha what a silly thing btw) and man..there were a lot of emotional and angry hate posts about sports (some that are kinda shameful). i can kinda laugh about it now, but in all seriousness, i find it disappointing that i was like that. true, ive grown up and really swallowed a lot of pride when it comes to sports. i try to talk less trash. i try to not let others' trash talk get to me. i try to find other joys whenever something upsetting happens in sports. all these things i try..or have tried..or am trying.

i just hope that years down the line, when im a working class man (maybe with a wife..maybe even kids..thats crazy too btw), i can look back at this post and laugh at myself for even letting sports dictate a little part of my life. don't get me wrong..i am a loyal sports fan. but i want to be a loyal sports fan w/o all the negative baggage. its one thing to be upset at a loss in the sports world, but its another thing to let a loss turn you into a person who has no regard for his own self-respect and the respect of others. i pray to God i may flee far from that person.

in the end..sports is sports. a loss is a loss. frown and move on. there are by far many greater joys in life worth cherishing than sports. i hope i can truly live this out.

God bless