Self-Discipline

Lots of goals set in 2012 & 2013. A few achieved. A lot more to add. Time to really put my words into motion. 2014: Self-Discipline

-Subjugating everything for the goal of living a life consistent with your beliefs

-Setting your heart on the prize

"I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings. Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize." 1 Corinthians 9:23-27

New Leaf

I look back on 2013 and read the fluctuations that my heart has gone through and find myself blessed to have survived and endured the emotional and spiritual turmoil that God has graciously placed in my life. There were a lot of times where I saw God's hands working and even a lot more where I wonder where God was. Hindsight is 20/20 and God was present in all of them. For me to think other wise is foolish. He is the Alpha and the Omega, beginning and end. All things He created. All things He is in control. It's not a question of whether or not He is present, it's a question of whether or not I am seeking Him where He's at. Goodbye 2013. You were kind of good, but mostly bad in my worldly eyes. You were good and undoubtedly necessary in my spiritual eyes.

No more excuses. No more regrets. Jesus lived on neither of these principles.

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit. Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the one, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not abide in me he is thrown away like a branch and withers; and the branches are gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned. If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. By this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit and so prove to be me disciples. As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my life. If you keep my commandments you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and abide in his love. These things I have spoke to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full." John 15.1-11

John 14:16-17

"I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may be with you forever; that is the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it does not see Him or know Him, but you know Him because He abides with you and will be in you."

Let it be to me according to your word.

its those people we read about in the news who express all their thoughts and emotions through outlets like this because they have no one to really listen. its those people who get lost in their own craziness that they do the most outrageous, unthinkable acts of immorality. i always wondered why, but im slowly understanding why. they were just in need. the world is in need. a bigger need than most people believe. those that dont believe in this need are just lying to themselves. itll be a sad realization for them one day when they are barely afloat. their minds will lost in left field and their hearts will be rotten to the core. they will wish that they could live in the past. but thus is life. it is a culmination and spiraling of man's brokenness fed by man's attempt to control it. we are all spiraling out of control. lost in this so-called life that we once believed would set us free. how foolish we are. how childish to believe that. ideal and reality are opposites, yet we imagine them as complements. stupid. what you know isnt something you can escape. but it can drown you. sucks. stay afloat a bit longer. or until your will is unwilling.

7.22.13

Today was a letdown. I don't even have the words to explain it.

Transformation

"Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."

1 Corinthians 9:24-27

Discipline. Transformation. Renewal