You are the peace that calms my troubled sea

its been a while. my thoughts are overflowing my brain. everytime i wanna write, i just get tired of thinking haha. but its sunday afternoon and i have some time to just relax and be at peace so here i am. week 3 in prague. a fast week. a not-too-shabby week. school has definitely picked up in the sense that we get piled w more work...work that seems a little too much for a study abroad program. or maybe its bc my expectations were low to begin with. regardless, ive endured my first school stress this week following a horrendous tax quiz which i scored the lowest in the class. haha. its stupid bc i read and took notes like no other and yet managed to counter my common sense/logical thinking when it came to the quiz. o well. live and learn. move on.

ive been dealt w other frustrations in life, mainly that of my fall registration and schedule. i thought i had it all planned out last spring. i mean..8 am registration. perfect times. somewhat okay professors. i took 5 mins to get everything i wanted and i went back to bed at peace. turns out...everything is f-ed the f-ed up and well..now my schedule is conflicted since the econ department decided to change all the times of their classes. im forced to scrabble to register in something else and well..its just everything that i could hope against. but in the midst of it, i wonder why things turn out like that and i laid at night and questioned why i even got frustrated with it. im always quick to forget that when times are good, i dont praise God enough for just being favorable and merciful to me. and yet when times are bad, i get all pissy missy w it. tho im not really like rawr rawr rawr w it, i still forgot that God is good...all the time. and well, if my scheduled is messed up..then i have to think positively and carpe diem it. it is what it is and i must seize the day. i even thought of that throughout yday (mainly in concern w USA soccer). but funny how situations just make you forget your beliefs in a split second. i need a tattoo that says carpe the frickin day on my forehead. so yah..i shall move past it and seize this opportunity. my days will be long but i mean, better than having short uneventful days. i look forward to the fall semester. i have so much desires and im anxious to see how life plays out. there are greater things that i forward to than school itself so i need to remind myself of that. may i be faithful in trusting that the future is not written by me, but by someone even more awesome. i await you, fall 2010.

phew. long vent session partly over. part dos.

i am quite homesick. =/. i have realized that europe is beautiful and the scenery is one of a kind, but the lifestyle and the people are just not the same. maybe ive lived in america my whole life. maybe im comfortable w plano and austin and all its amenities. maybe im just too in love w the people and culture back home. but europe seriously isnt that cool. the culture here is different. its not entirely bad, but i just dont see myself living here. ever. first of all, i dont think hospitality is in their vocab. being here makes me miss southern hospitality. i know people say its just a texas thing...that other parts of america arent as hospitable and what not..but from what i have experience here..there arent many people (few i would say) that even know how to smile. everywhere i look, i see people w faces of death. faces that seem so hallow inside. maybe its just how their faces are..i dunno, but there seems to be no joy here. even worse, people just have no sense of desire to connect w each other in a positive way. people just push thro people. people shoot glares at each other. people just yell at each other over petty things. people dont smile. people really just dont give a flip about anyone else than themselves really. i would give examples..but every situation is a case by case. however, ive yet to experience a good case. im hoping the next 2 weeks brings at least 1. for the time being, i miss america. i miss my family and friends. i miss american sports. i miss american food. i miss juice (gahhhh). i miss driving my car. i am excited to travel the rest of europe in a few weeks. like really excited. but im also excited to be at home.

ok i feel like ive whined and moaned a good bit. to my surprise, i did have a good relatively peaceful weekend. stayed in town. saw some places i wouldnt have gotten a chance to. went to the national museum. it was okay. not that spectactular, but it was nice to walk and experience art and science and jazz like that. i went to vysehrad castle grounds. wasnt like a hugehuge castle place, but they had some neat places and a beautiful church. a really nice cemetery where a lot of famous people and like generations of families are buried. however, cemeteries frick the hell outta me. went to the zoo on thurs. i absolutely love zoos. im taking my kids there like every year. to like every zoo in america. i just love love zoos. itll prob be moreso for me. zoos and sea world make me feel like a youngster again. praise God for animal creation. i also went to a ballet. haha i know..not my 1st option in life, but it was interesting. saw "goldilocks." but definitely didnt see any bears. it was about a princess and some dude w his dog. it was different but kinda coolish haha. thats about it. im gonna go enjoy my restful Sunday. all the time, God is good. God is good all the time

i love desiring more.



i love dinosaurs. w a passion.

churches are beautiful

i love being in touch w my inner artfart

currently on my mind: leeland - beautiful lord